I don't have many pictures from my childhood and that has always been something that I struggled with. I love to look at old pictures of people I know and love, but the time spent poring over others childhood memories was always mingled with a tiny bit of wishing that I still had some of my own.
I remember there being tons and tons of pictures, but they have all been lost.
In a way, it felt like a part of me was lost with those photos. I have a hard time connecting to the past at times and not having the visual reminders just makes that all the more difficult. There was never any being embarrassed at showing boyfriends baby pictures. I dreaded events that might ask you to bring past pictures. Not having any pictures left a small hole in me, like a period of my life was missing.
Perhaps that is why I appreciate the power of photography so much now.
Today, I received a completely unexpected blessing in the form of an email of scanned photos from my childhood. There aren't many, but enough to make me feel more connected to who I was. Who I am.
I am so grateful.
I have wanted for so long to take Ali Edward's Yesterday and Today class, (hopefully it runs again!) but never felt like I could because of the lack of photos. The batch that I just received has made me rethink that. What a healing experience it could be if I allow myself to do it.
I feel so blessed to have been given this gift.
Because truly, that is what it is.
haha look at that old chair! I remember that thing like it was yesterday! Good thing I didn't inherit THAT decorating gene ;-)
My heart is so full right now.